I may still write a review of Room, but today I wanted to share one of my favorite quotes from the book. It's from the very end, a conversation between the narrator, five-year-old Jack, and his mother, and this passage really struck a cord with me:
I walk to Bed Wall and touch it with one finger, the cork doesn't feel like anything. "Is it good night in the day?"
"Can we say good night when it's not night?"
"I think it would be good-bye."
"Good-bye, Wall." Then I say it to the three other walls, then "Good-bye, Floor." I pat Bed, "Good-bye, Bed." I put my head down in Under Bed to say, "Good-bye, Eggsnake." In Wardrobe I whisper, "Good-bye, Wardrobe." In the dark there's the picture of me Ma did for my birthday, I look very small. I wave her over and point to it.
I kiss her face where the tears are, that's how the sea tastes.
I put the me picture down and zip it into my jacket. Ma's nearly at Door, I go over. "Lift me up?"
Ma sits me up on her hip, I reach up.
She holds me by my ribs and lifts me up up up, I touch the start of Roof. I say, "Good-bye, Roof."
Ma puts me down thump.
"Good-bye, Room." I wave up at Skylight. "Say good-bye," I tell Ma. "Good-bye, Room."
Ma says it but on mute.
I look back one more time. It's like a crater, a hole where something happened. Then we go out the door.
To me, this passage underscores how people who suffer traumas and acts of atrocity often carry these tragedies with them. They do not have to define them or limit them, but they are a part of who these people are. It doesn't help to hide these traumas away, to act like they didn't happen. As Jack says, they leave a hole where something happened, a hole that needs to be recognized, addressed, dealt with out in the open. Room is a physical sign of the wounds Jack and his mother now carry.
And to Jack, it isn't all bad. Room was his first home, his entire world for most of his life. It holds many happy memories of the life he shared with his mother, a life he never knew was so incredibly limited because of their captor. So saying good-bye is in part bitter for him. He is saying goodbye to a place and to things he loves. And in this way, Donoghue illustrates how even the darkest and most unimaginable tragedies aren't always black and white. That people can create good in horrific situations, that there can be love and life where it would otherwise seem impossible.
Ultimately, though, I think the act of saying good-bye is the most important facet of this scene. It shows Jack and Ma's autonomy, that they are choosing to go back to the physical space of their tragedy and say good-bye to it. In doing so, they acknowledge Room, they acknowledge the trauma and tragedy they suffered. And then they say good-bye, they choose to move on. I think that's the hardest place to get to if you have encountered any sort of suffering in your life. But ultimately, Donoghue is hopeful. It may be hard, but Jack and Ma can move on. They can have a rich and beautiful life despite what happened to them. And isn't that an amazing thing?
Has anyone else read Room? What's one of your favorite quotes?